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Wednesday, March 13, 2019

A Timely Reminder

Isn’t it interesting how past you can remind present you of some important things? This happened for me when I started looking through all my blog posts. My blog stats show that my post, “All Things from the Beginning” (https://mckallerin.blogspot.com/2017/12/all-things-from-beginning.html) had been viewed about 60 times, so I decided to look at it myself. Many the memories flooded back to me as I read about my difficult semester. 

All too well do I remember the difficulties that semester presented. I was taking the most classes I had ever taken in one semester, and for at least two months during it, I had one or two migraines a day. Not something I ever want to return to. However, what I learned from it, is not something I would ever want to miss out on! And now, as I read, I realized that I am again in the same position, and seeing those same blessings again in my life. 

Last summer I was in the middle of finishing my undergrad degree by doing two internships, and not taking classes was an adjustment. The feeling of being in-between, the wondering what was next, and settling into my new life was much more difficult then I had anticipated. I knew that everything would work out the way it needed to, but I couldn’t shake off my melancholy very easily. Then I got the job that I was hoping and praying for, and things were a little better, but when God wants you to do something he doesn’t leave you feeling settled for long. I soon started to feel that I needed to apply for grad school at Utah State University. This revelation was not necessarily a happy one for me, it fact in caused me a lot of anxiety, feeling my abilities far beneath the requirements of a Masters degree. But, after a long, long time of resisting, I finally applied to the program, with the help of my wonderful family and some dear friends. During this same time, I began to feel that it was important for me to start a blog dedicated to stories of the past. As much as I love to write, I felt this could be a stepping point in my career that go either go well or go wrong. But I made an attempt to start (although since then it’s progress has been remarkably slow).

I could write a lot more about all of this, but as I don’t want this to be a terribly long post, I will venture to make a long story short. In February I was accepted to the USU History graduate program, and this last week I was offered to have my blog spotlighted on a very well known family history podcast. So here I sit, with my life and career on a path that six months ago I would never have imagined. My heart and mind are filled with much trepidation and a little excitement. And today, when I read, in my own words no less, that “trusting in Heavenly Father means recognizing and REMEMBERING that Heavenly Father has all power and that if you try your best to follow him (and even sometimes when you have your moments of forgetting to trust him), things will work out the way Heavenly Father knows they need to, because he DOES know all things from the beginning... So overall I guess I just hope my future self will remember to trust Heavenly Father more and remember that he really does prepare 'a way to accomplish all his works among the children of men,' and that 'he hath all power.'" 

Now here I am, learning the same lesson again, and I am grateful for the reminder. So, I am peaceful about the future. I know it will be difficult, that there will probably be tears that are shed, but there will also be happy moments. As long as I end up where God needs me to be that’s what matters. And I know that as long as I try I will end up there, where ever that may be, because all things are in His hands!

Wednesday, November 28, 2018

It’s Been Awhile and a New Blog

It has been a very long time since I’ve posted in this blog! Looking back through posts, I’ve realized this has been a blog mainly for publishing my different assignments for school, and in some ways has been a journal for some of my intellectual and spiritual musings. So, while this blog will continue to serve that purpose, I’d also like to use this as a blog to post about my picture and video projects. When I will ever have time to do that I don’t know, but I’ll have more motivation now that I’ve written it down right? Right... Plus I’ve started a blog for my story writing! So this will probably take priority over anything I do on here now. I’m excited about it! Check it out at www.makingtheirstoriesknown.blogspot.com
Well, that’s all for now folks! Until next time!

Saturday, April 14, 2018

Come Lord Jesus

Two verses that I have always really loved are Revelation 22: 17 & 20.
17 And the Spriti and the bride say, Come. And let him that heareth say, Come. And let him that is athirst come. And whosoever will, let him take the water of life freely..
20 He which testifieth these things saith, Surely I come quickly. Amen. Even so, come, Lord Jesus.

One of  the reasons that I love these verses because I think they give the best summary of the bible, and so it is fitting that they are at the end. It is about coming to Jesus, and then preparing for Jesus to come, to return to the earth again. I have met people who say something to the effect of, "I'm not in any hurry for Jesus to come back, I 'm not ready." While I can't say that I am as righteous as I would like to be before he comes, I can't wait for him to come back! And that is the attitude that I think he wants us to have. That is something that stood out to me from President Nelson's conference talk as well. The Savior's return is a wonderful and exciting thing. Something that we need to prepare for, yes, but something we need not fear. I gives me motivation to do a little better, to stand a little taller and to commune with Heaven a little more. Like John I want to say "Come quickly... Come Lord Jesus!"

Saturday, April 7, 2018

Revelation

This past conference was truly amazing! It was the motivation I needed to recommit to Heavenly Father. While I loved so many of the talks, my favorite one was definitely President Nelson's talk, "Revelation for the Church, Revelation for Our Lives." While I loved the whole talk, these two specific quotes stood out to me:

"One of the things the Spirit has repeatedly impressed upon my mind since my new calling as President of the Church is how willing the Lord is to reveal His mind and will. The privilege of receiving revelation is one of the greatest gifts of God to His children...

I urge you to stretch beyond your current spiritual ability to receive personal revelation, for the Lord has promised that 'if thou shalt [seek], thou shalt receive revelation upon revelation, knowledge upon knowledge, that thou mayest know the mysteries and peaceable things—that which bringeth joy, that which bringeth life eternal'... Oh, there is so much more that your Father in Heaven wants you to know."

These both mean so much to me, especially since I am graduating in a few weeks and trying to figure out what to do with my life. It is comforting that a prophet of God has told us that no matter what we may be going through in our lives, whether it is graduation, getting married, starting a new job, having a baby, family problems, or anything else life may bring, Heavenly Father will help and guide us. Sometimes I think because we know Heavenly Father wants us to learn that we don't rely on him enough. This was confirmed to me when President Nelson said "...there is so much more that your Father in Heaven wants you to know." I know that he does, and that I can work more to me open and receptive to what he wants me to know.


Saturday, March 31, 2018

To Know Him

Today was a wonderful day of General Conference! It is one of my favorite times of the year. I always learn so much and today was no different. While I felt that following the Prophet was one of the main themes of the talks given in the sessions today, there was also another theme that stood out to me. This may have been because we talked a lot about it in class this week as well, but I think that it is a very important thing to remember. Something that has really stood out to me was how important it is to truly know our Heavenly Father. In conference there were several talks that touched on the point of if you want to know you're identity and worth, come to know Heavenly Father and His son Jesus Christ. Often the follow up phrase in the talks was that to know you must study his words and then act on them. This was reiterated in a verse I came across in my scripture study this week. It is 1 John 2:3 "And hereby we do know that we know him, if we keep his commandments."
It is said so simply, yet it is so profound. How many of us, if we truly took the time to study who Heavenly Father is, and what that means for us, would have a different outlook on life, and about ourselves. I think I would think differently. I love our Savior and I am so grateful for what he did and continuously does for each of us. But as we discussed in class, the Savior's main goal is to point us to the Father, and after conference today, I think that is something I personally should work on. The scriptures and General Conference have such a great way of teaching you things meant just for you!

Saturday, March 24, 2018

Afflictions of the Gospel

In my reading this week this verse stuck out to me:

2 Timothy 1:8
"Be not thou therefore ashamed of the testimony of our Lord, nor of me his prisoner: but be thou partaker of the afflictions of the gospel according to the power of God."

What stuck out to me most was the line "but be thou partaker of the afflictions of the gospel according to the power of God." We all at some point or another have"afflictions" in our lives. That is just a part of life. This is something that has been on my mind the past little while, having experienced some afflictions of my own. It can be very overwhelming and discouraging. It can almost seem like life will constantly have sadness and disappointments. This verse shows me that though life does bring afflictions, according to the power of God, we can make it through them, and that even with all the affliction life brings, when you turn to the Lord, you can find the silver lining even in the hard times. Paul's life is prime proof that having the gospel in your life does not make life perfectly easy and always joyful. Through all he went through however, he always rejoiced in the gospel and trusted that in the end, God would make things right. And he will, and if we live the gospel, we can allow God's help to more fully take a justifying and sanctifying role in our lives. Through the grace of Christ, we can rely on his strength at any an all times.

Saturday, March 17, 2018

The Vocation to Which You've Been Called

This week in my scripture study, a particular verse really stood out to me.
Ephesians 4:1 "I therefore, the prisoner of the Lord, beseech you that ye walk worthy of the vocatioin wherewith ye are called." What stood out most to me was the word "vocation." This word has always caught my attention because it is in my patriarchal blessing, and I have spent many times researching what it means and trying to understand what it means for me in the context of my patriarchal blessing. The footnote in this scripture, signifies that vocation in this verse can mean calling. This was significant to me because I feel that besides the jobs, church callings and assignments that we have in life, we have callings and missions that we accepted from Heavenly Father before we came to this life. They can be many different things and happen during the duration of our whole life. Fulfilling them requires being close to the spirit and being obedient to the promptions we receive. Becoming good at this is a process that we have to work at our whole lives. Reading this verse also shows me that Heavenly Father is always willing to teach us more about our personal lives through the scriptures if we allow him too. He teaches us individuallly and specifically!

Saturday, March 10, 2018

Acts 26:18 My own missionary

In Acts 26 Paul is speaking to King Agrippa about his miraculous visitation by the Savior on the road to Damascus. After Jesus asks Paul the soul harrowing question "Why persecutest thou me?" He later goes on to tell Paul that he is to go to the Gentiles and (in verse 18) "To open their eyes, and to turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan unto God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins, and inheritance among them which are sanctified by faith that is in me." This is what missionaries are asked to do, to open their eyes and invite them to come unto Christ and his light. However, as I read this verse another thought came to me. Before Paul could do this for others he had to do this for himself, and it wasn't just a one time event. Conversion is a life long process of turning and returning your heart to the Savior. It is something that we have to choose to do on our own. In a sense this makes me feel like we are our own "missionaries." We have to choose and work to open our own eyes, to turn from darkness to light, turn away for the temptations and power of Satan and take active steps towards our Heavenly Father by living the kind of life he asks us to. This is something we do everyday as we pray and talk to our Heavenly Father and read our scriptures. It is something we must actively and consistently do. We won't do it perfectly, by it something we must be intentional about, just as Paul had to do throughout his own life.

Saturday, March 3, 2018

Grace abounds

In class we've talked a lot about grace and the role it has in our lives. As I was reading the Book of Roman's this verse made an impression on me:
Romans 5:20 - Moreover the law entered, that the offence might abound. But where sin abounded, grace did much more abound.
I think that this phrasing is beautiful, "grace did much more abound." I am someone who gets easily overwhelmed. With homework, two jobs, church responsibilities, family responsibilities and getting ready to graduate, how imperfect and inadequate I am makes me very very discouraged. So to remember that grace much more abounds in my life when I come to the Savior reminds me that I cannot ever make it on my own. I have to depend on the Savior who makes my steps wider, my best to be enough, and my scarlet sins to be as white as snow. It doesn't mean of course that I can do whatever I want and grace will take care of it all, heaven forbid, as Paul would say. But it does mean that my imperfect human self can someday become more like my Savior.

Saturday, February 10, 2018

Run the Race

Studying for the paper we had to write this week was a great study experience! I chose to study 2 Timothy 4, spending a lot of time on verses 6 through 8. Using the website http://scriptures.byu.edu
A talk that came up for the verses was The Strength to Endure (2013) by Richard J. Maynes. Elder Maynes talks about spiritual strength and endurance, with the Lord’s help, continuing to “run the race.” He says:
“So whatever challenges you wake up to each morning, remember—with the spiritual strength you develop, coupled with the Lord’s help, at the end of the race you will be able to enjoy the confidence that the Apostle Paul expressed when he said: ‘For I am now ready to be offered, and the time of my departure is at hand. I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith: Henceforth there is laid up for me a crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, shall give me at that day.’ I bear you my testimony and my witness of the reality of a loving Heavenly Father and His great and eternal plan of happiness, which has brought us to this earth at this time.”

This talk, and especially this quote, reminded me again of how I felt when I read this chapter on my mission. My mission was hard, but I was able to complete it with the Lord’s help. And because of that I know that we can do anything with the Lord’s help.

I learned a lot of things from this chapter, such as following promptings of the spirit, being a missionary, and enduring to end, overall it was neat for me to be reminded of things I learned on my mission over three years ago. I find that often the spirit teaches best by helping your mind and your heart remember things it has already learned. That is why it is always worthwhile to re-study any scripture chapter multiple times.

Saturday, February 3, 2018

Consistency

As I continue on with my SMART project I'm realizing that most of my posts for class will probably come from the book "Act in Doctrine" that I'm reading. There are so many drops wisdom. This week I read:
"As you and I become increasingly steadfast and immovable, we are less prone to zealous and exaggerated spurts of spirituality followed by extended periods of slackness. A spiritual "spurter" is one who is given to a short burst of spectacular effort followed by frequent and lengthy periods of rest." 
This was especially meaningful for me because I feel like my life is made of great spiritual spurts and lengthy periods of rest. The question is how to be consistent? I know I need to be consistent, but how? Elder Bednar goes on to share the scripture Alma 37:6... by small and simple things are great things brought to pass. In pondering on the how in relation to this scripture, I was reminded that consistency must become a habit that starts with small things. So, in learning to act, I can pick a one thing that may seem small, and work on being consistent on that. As we do that and continue to build on it, the big things that seem overwhelming, we can eventually become consistent in.

Saturday, January 27, 2018

Doctrines, Principles and Applications

For my religion class this semester I decided for my hour a week project I wanted to read the book by Elder Bednar, "Act in Doctrine." I've been wanting to read it for awhile, but with everything on my plate it always got pushed to he back burner.
I haven't gotten very far, but already I am finding little treasures. In the preface this paragraph stood out to me:
"Our tendency as members of the Church is to focus on applications. But as we learn to ask ourselves, 'What doctrines and principles, if understood, would help with this challenge?' we come to realize that the answers always are in the doctrines and principles of the gospel."
This really stood out to me and as I've thought about it, I agree that what he says here is so true. As members of the church and as people, we tend to look at things with the perspective of "What do I have to do and what am I not supposed to do." We want to know how far we can go without "crossing the line." Probably because of the natural man in us. But how would we be different if instead of things about the things to do, we thought about why we are (or are not) supposed to do. How we what we think change? How would our desires be different?
I think changing my way of thinking would change a lot of what I do, and this is something I am going to consciously try to think more about it.

Saturday, January 20, 2018

God's Timing

This last week, with the re-organization of the first presidency, I've been thinking a lot about how Heavenly Father has a plan for ALL things and how his timing is perfect. In thinking about it I decided to look up some scriptures about time. This was the one that stuck out to me the most.
D&C 88:42 And again, verily I say unto you, he hath given a law unto all things, by which they move in their times and their seasons;
While I definitely miss President Monson, I also know (and feel strongly) that now is the time that President Nelson is meant to serve as the Lord's prophet. Since I've been born, there have been five different prophets, however, I only really remember the last three. I have seen how each of the three have been called for specific reasons. Many of them are frequently mentioned in the church. President Hinckley - Temples and more good attention in the media 
President Monson - Service and being "to the Rescue."
And now with President Nelson, his good relations with China, his attention on the youth and young adults of the church, and the focus on temple attendance, I can see how the Lord is hastening his work in his timing, and his timing is perfect.
This shows me that if the Lord does this in the affairs of his church, then he will surely do that in my own life. I have seen that already. There are times and seasons for things. Sometimes things go the way I hope they will, and sometimes things are hard and don't go any where near the way I expect, but all in all, I can see that things go the way they need to. God's times and seasons are always perfect!

Friday, December 8, 2017

All things from the Beginning

This last semester was probably one of the hardest semesters I've ever had. Between really hard classes, two jobs, being on a dance team and health struggles, I was really feeling like there was no way that this semester could ever turn out well. I tried to have faith, but inside I just felt like this was part of mortal life, sometimes things crash and I just had to accept it. While I still feel like sometimes things are hard and that's just life, now that I am at the end of the semester I recognize that Heavenly Father always has a plan for us. This sounds so basic, everyone should know this right? In my head I did know it, but now I really know it. Though maybe what happens in our lives wasn't what we originally wanted, in the end it is actually what is best. At the beginning of the semester He knew what was going to happen and he knew what my reactions and capabilities would be. In pondering all these thoughts, the following scripture came to mind:
1 Nephi 9: 6 But the Lord knoweth all things from the beginning; wherefore, he prepareth a way to accomplish all his works among the children of men; for behold, he hath all power unto the fulfilling of all his words. And thus it is. Amen.
This semester I have learned (and am still learning) that trusting in Heavenly Father means recognizing and REMEMBERING that Heavenly Father has all power and that if you try your best to follow him (and even sometimes when you have your moments of forgetting to trust him), things will work out the way Heavenly Father knows they need to, because he DOES know all things from the beginning. I realized today looking back at this semester that I have a lot of peace with how things are turning out. No I don't have perfect grades, I'm not perfectly healed from all my different health issues, and I didn't get all my hours in for work, but the most important things are working out. There are also things that have happened this semester that needed to happen that wouldn't have happened if everything had gone the way I had hoped and planned. So overall I guess I just hope my future self will remember to trust Heavenly Father more and remember that he really does prepare "a way to accomplish all his works among the children of men," and that "he hath all power."

Monday, December 4, 2017

Treasure

I was having a really hard time in thinking about what to share this week. But then my home teachers came over and their thought inspired me so much that I wanted to share it with y'all. It comes from Jacob 2:18-19 
18 But before ye seek for riches, seek ye for the kingdom of God.
19 And after ye have obtained a hope in Christ ye shall obtain riches, if ye seek them; and ye will seek them for the intent to do good—to clothe the naked, and to feed the hungry, and to liberate the captive, and administer relief to the sick and the afflicted.

My home teachers shared the perspective that riches can mean many different things. As students this can especially apply to knowledge and education. I can be so easy to let the stress of school (and finals) get in the way of our spiritual education and putting Heavenly Father first. Along with that, the purpose of why we gain knowledge and education really does matter. Yes we need to get a degree so that we can provide for ourselves and our families, but even more important than that is to gain knowledge so that we can accomplish the personal missions Heavenly Father has planned for each of us. When we make that our primary focus, I really believe that Heavenly Father will bless us to have enough for ourselves but also be blessed we the resources to help others who might not have as much as we do! And not only monetarily but spiritually and educationally. When we have knowledge in certain things, we are expected to help others who need help in those areas, whether it's math, health or even Family History. It's like D&C 82:3 says, "For of him unto whom much is given much is required..." So, as we go into finals, I hope that we can all remember why we're doing what we're doing, and also remember that Heavenly Father will always help us when we put him first!

Monday, November 6, 2017

All Things have been done in the Wisdom of Him

This week my roommate showed me this scripture:
2 Nephi 2:24 But behold, all things have been done in the wisdom of him who knoweth all things.
25 Adam fell that men might be; and men are, that they might have joy.
I'm sorry to say that though I have looked at verse 25 a million times, verse 24 hasn't stood out to me as much before, especially in how in connects to verse 25.
This scripture shows that all Heavenly Father does, in his perfect wisdom, is in the end for our benefit and happiness. In the midst of a busy and hard semester this is something that I have to remember. In my short-sited-ness sometimes I get so caught up in my "right now." I get upset that things don't go the way I want when I want them to. Throughout the scriptures (as well as church history) there are multiple examples of people going through hard times, not being able to understand why, but then seeing later how the hands of the Lord were involved even in the tiniest details of their lives. This scripture was a good reminder for me that the Lord is aware of me, and that if I just trust him even when I don't understand why (for example when he prompts me to take a really really hard class), eventually I will get through it. Maybe someday I'll even see the reason why. But even if I don't, I can know that Heavenly Father knows all things and that he loves me more then I can comprehend and therefore things will work out for my good if I only humble myself enough to trust him.

Monday, October 30, 2017

Sundrops through the Rain

There are some days that I am just so thankful for the Book of Mormon. Because Heavenly Father uses it to speak to each of us individually. Today was one of those days when he used one verse to speak specifically to me.

Alma 31:31
"O Lord, my heart is exceedingly sorrowful; wilt thou comfort my soul in Christ. O Lord, wilt thou grant unto me that I may have strength, that I may suffer with patience these afflictions which shall come upon me..."

The word affliction stood out to me because I am having the hardest semester I've ever had before, boy when it rains it pours. But when I reflected on this scripture and how it applies to me the spirit brought other scriptures to my mind (I love it when that happens ;) ).
First I was reminded of this scripture:
D&C 121: 7
"My son, peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment;"

Then that scripture made me think of this one:
Isaiah 41:10
"Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness."

Using these three scriptures created a conversation between me and Heavenly Father in my head. Alma 31 was what I said, and D&C and Isaiah are what Heavenly Father said in reply. We all have these times in our lives where we cry out to Heavenly Father for help, comfort and strength, and the wonderful thing is, and that I testify of, is that he ALWAYS answers. Whether it is through the scriptures, thoughts to our minds or through the people around us he always answers. Life is still hard, and everyone once in awhile I'll probably be angry about it, but I'm grateful for the little sundrops that Heavenly Father sends down to us through the rain. That's why I'm grateful for the Book of Mormon today!

Saturday, October 7, 2017

The Precious Things

Wow I haven't posted in a long time and I am very out of practice. My Book of Mormon class this semester is fantastic. It has been so long since I have done a good study of the Book of Mormon and I am learning a lot. There are so many little tidbits in the scriptures that are easy to miss but can mean so much! One such tidbit for me this week was Jacob 1:2 :
"And he gave me, Jacob, a commandment that I should write upon these plates a few of the things which I considered to be most precious;"
I wonder how Jacob felt to receive that charge. Overwhelmed I am sure. This made me wonder, what things would I write? What things would I consider to be most precious? This led me to think about two things; recording me life/spiritual impressions and experiences, and what is most important to me (as well as prioritizing those things). Being a family history major and all you'd think I'd be real good at keeping a personal history and journal right? Ha! My journal entries are very few and far between and rarely full of important information. I get overwhelmed at all the things I could write (and plus what crazy busy college student ever has time for that?) and when I do write is often ends up being about what I did that day. Jacob has taught me that focusing on writing the precious things (which for me is spiritual experiences or lessons I'm learning through my lifelong challenges). Because what we write should be real, and it should be things that we need to remember in the future. The second part, what is important to me and prioritizing was a good self check and a reminder that I need to be more active in making sure I put the Lord first in my life! Thanks for the lesson and reminder Jacob!

Friday, April 14, 2017

Trust in God No Matter What the Timing

I've been studying the topic of trust in the Book of Mormon lately. I've had a desire to know what trust means, what my part of trust is, and what God's part is. As I read the story of the people of Alma and the burdens placed on their backs in Mosiah 24, I was struck with how much faith they had. They cried "mightily to God" (Mosiah 24:10) unlike the people of Limhi who tried to "deliver themselves out of bondage" (Mosiah 22:1). The people of Limhi waited patiently upon the Lord to not only lighten their burdens in His timing, but also to deliver them in His timing.
This time in reading chapter 24 I realized that it doesn't say how long they were in bondage to Amulon and the Lamanites. It could have been a long time, but however long it was, they trusted that all things were in God's control, and it was. Sometimes it is easy to feel that we have to "fix" our lives by ourselves, especially when it seams that God is not listening, or when we want things fixed NOW. But this story is a good reminder that if we "hush our fears, and cry unto the Lord" (Mosiah 24:28) then things will really work out in the best way, His way.

Friday, April 7, 2017

The Book of Mormon

"If you do not have a firm testimony of these things, do that which is necessary to obtain one. It is essential for you to have your own testimony in these difficult times, for the testimonies of others will carry you only so far. However, once obtained, a testimony needs to be kept vital and alive through continued obedience to the commandments of God and through daily prayer and scripture study." - President Thomas S. Monson

For some reason (I hardly know why) that last couple of years I haven't enjoyed reading the Book of Mormon. I've NEVER doubted that it was true, but for some reason I've felt more connected to the Four Gospel and the Doctrine and Covenants, and often chose to read those over reading the Book of Mormon.

However, after hearing the above said by President Monson last Saturday during General Conference, the spirit very directly showed me that I needed to change. It also reminded of when Elder Bednar came to my mission and promised that if we read the Book of Mormon EVERY day that we would never fall away from the gospel.

This last week I have tried to be more diligent in not only reading, but STUDYING the Book of Mormon every day. Though it has only been 5 days, I can already feel a noticeable difference inside myself, reiterating to me how important studying the Book of Mormon every day is.

I know of people who say they are struggling with their testimony of the church.
Sometimes I think we forget, that while it is good, our testimony of the "Church" isn't what is most important and focusing on that distracts us from the most important thing. What is most important is our testimony of Christ and the church is merely the vehicle to keep that strong. Because the Book of Mormon is a testament of Christ. What better way to gain, or to strengthen your testimony of Christ then by reading the Book of Mormon.

If you are struggling with your testimony of the church I invite you to put that aside for now and focus instead on your testimony of the Savior. Whatever may bother you about the church, let it go for a little while and instead put all your effort into making the Savior your best friend. Think about Him, learn about Him, try to feel His love for you because it is always there. Learning about the Savior will always lead you to our Heavenly Father (and I would also add Heavenly Mother because I feel sure they are very alike and one in purpose, as my own parents are), whose love for you is without end.

I know that through reading the Book of Mormon we can get answers to ANY questions, and that you will gain more peace through it than any other way.